Self Centred – Nick Grant

Self Centred

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This is a story about sociopathy…

Stick man

How do I write anything at all without making it seem like I’m making everything all about me? How do I have thoughts or even exist, without relating everything to my own personal experience; my own perceptions? What am I, if I’m nothing except an audience member; an observer?

“You’re out of tune!” shrieks the little girl, except she’s wrong because the keyboard won’t even play the notes out of tune – you can press any keys you want and the keyboard will *always* play in tune.

I woke up and I wanted to slit my own throat or to take an overdose. I need to go to sleep but I want to hurt myself. You know what? Fuck you. That’s what – fuck you. It’s not about you as much as it’s not about me. It’s not about *ANYONE* if you want to play that fucking game. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.

I’ve had enough. I’ve taken enough. I’ve heard enough. I’m fucked off.

 

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4 responses to “Self Centred”

  1. David avatar
    David

    Nick- Please stop what you are doing and get help.

  2. Tracey Herself avatar

    Nick, you’ve reached a crisis point. It’s crucial you seek emergency mental health care immediately. Please.

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